We had a Code Red drill at school today. A real drill, not the way we’ve done it throughout COVID.
I had a “dream” about it last night. I was in my classroom following protocol, and suddenly the kids stopped listening. One opened the door after the code was called. I lost it & began screaming at her. Other kids wouldn’t stop talking. When the drill was over, I spoke to an assistant principal who asked what was wrong. I explained what happened & why I lost it. That’s when I woke up… stressed & anxious.
I have been admittedly cranky all day. I went over the instructions with my class. I showed the video sent by Admin. I reminded them that I was here on 2/14 & that I was struggling. They listened and were compassionate. We went through the drill. They were great! I was not.
After the drill, I allowed them the rest of class to talk. Today’s assignment didn’t seem important enough to have them do. I gave my next class the period off, too. I just needed to sit at my desk and be quiet.
Leading up to the drill my chest felt tight and I had severe anxiety. After the drill, my chest is still tight and I began to relax a little. I’m glad it happened on a day I have planning, so I can have 90 minutes to myself.
I’m leaving at the bell today to go to the chiropractor. I hope they can work out all the knots in my back, neck & shoulders.
I hate these drills.